Thanks to several FB friends and a weird dream I have started watching The Walking Dead. I know, I know the show has already been going for six years, I am super late to the party. So why have I put it off for so long? Well honestly, I am petrified of zombies. Well not zombies exactly, more I’m terrified of how well I’d cope in a apocalyptic scenario. I am unfit. So very unfit. And I have two young kids. I have zero survival skills and would probably die from an anxiety induced heart attack before anything else.
Because of this my husband is perplexed as to why I am watching the show *cough*DarylDixon*cough* I am only up to the start of season 2 but so far it is really, really good. Whilst the zombies, I mean walkers, are gross and gnarly the characters are great and the story gripping. I am prone to obsessive tendencies though and the last time I watched anything to do with zombies I was looking up survival kits, tents, emergency supplies, drawing up survival plans, having anxiety attacks, it was unhealthy and unpleasant and why I completely distanced myself from anything to do with it.
Just before starting the show I had a similar but smaller melt down over it and found myself obsessively researching fitness and exercise that’d be most effective for dealing with an apocalypse (which by the way seems to be High Intensity Interval Training) I dealt with it though (thanks CBT) and thought it had subsided as I was enjoying the show but this morning the unpleasant simmer of terror in the pit of my stomach is gurgling away and actually giving me quite a headache too.
However I am really enjoying the show and I don’t want to be ruled by this feeling so there is only one thing for it, I need to get zombie fit. It’s the fitness side that bothers me most and it’s actually a thing I can do something about. I can’t afford a gym (£48pm are you kidding me?) and I hate running so it’s going to be interesting how I achieve this but I feel achieving this is the only way to conquer the fear and feel in control. Being fit is a good thing in life generally and as I found online during my research not enough people are functionally fit.
So wish me luck and stay tuned as I update my progress and keep myself in check here.